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So here it is the beginning of a very long road and a battle with myself.
In the fall of 2009 I was convinced to go and join CFJAX and sell my life to them. CFJAX is not a box that you want to play with, they are VERY serious about what they do, how they train and what they eat at the same time of having a good time doing what they do best... push you to your fullest potential and then pass that! When I joined the box all I could think was this is something that has to be done and it doesnt matter how I feel about it, well it really does matter how you feel. If you don't feel like going to the Box and don't feel like doing the WOD of the day, it will show and others can see that. If you don't have that drive in yourself then they won't be able to help you.
After going to CFJax for a couple of months and doing that last WOD before Christmas I started finally getting into it, I wanted to break PR's and do BETTER at what I had been missing before. I was getting really excited and couldn't wait til after Christmas when we would get back into the BOX and doing WOD's. Right before Christmas I had an ankle injury and tore ligaments in my right ankle, which it was already weak from a prior injury. Apparently someone with a higher power thought I need a longer break than I was ready to take. I had atleast 2 and a half months to really sit and think about what I really wanted to do when it came to fitness and getting myself into shape.
The time that passed seemed like it took forever, but when that time came to go back to the Box I knew for sure I was ready to get with it. There is something about CFJax that you can't stay away from, I dont know if it's a subliminal message like the motto of Fight Club - but we talk about it all the time - or just the fact that you have this family that doesn't have to say a word to you for you to know they are there for you. I will admit I was a little scared to come back and start working out, it got to a point with myself that I wouldn't do some things because I used my ankle as an excuse and also knew at the same time I wasn't ready to run a mile. At some point in your life you need to shed those crutches you use and break out of the 'safe zone'. Sometimes I keep going back to that safe zone but I try harder and harder each time to get farther away from it, because that zone is no longer safe.
My 'safe zone' , it's what I was doing and where I was headed. I would eat whatever I wanted and do whatever I wanted when I felt the need to because it felt good and well, safe. Meghan and Chris and everyone at the box have really shown me that there are other things in this world that are SO much better and a lot safer than where I was. I can't say thank you enough to them for what they have done, although their answer would be that I have done all the hard work. For me the hardest part is the push, the motivation and the love for the sport.
It wasn't a decision it was something that just happened. I went to Meghan and actually sat down with her about 'The Zone' and she told me what I needed to do. Today is 5/10/10 and I have been doing the zone for 1 week and a day, the outcome already is rediculous. I've already lost 6lbs in 1 week of being on the zone. This is my baseline and I have 1 week to go, I can see a change in myself and how my clothes are fitting already. Meghan says it's all me but I don't think I would have had this much luck if it wasn't for their drive at CFJax. They have never gave up on me and I sure as hell won't give up on them!
This is just the start of a battle for myself and getting started is the toughest part, I can't wait to see the send product. Going hard and keeping it movin'!
