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First of all, since the last write up I have broke a Deadlift PR, ran 2 5k's, learned kipping pull ups with a band and figured out what my 'box family' really is. This has been an emotional roller coaster for me since day 1 and I never thought I would have even made it this far. With the intensity in my heart and the determination in my eyes and my coaches voice in my head I will never give or let up. I've figured out that no matter how crappy your day is or how bad you think a personal relationship is going you can walk into my small box, be greeted with a smile, high five and in the same breath getting your butt kicked. I've noticed in the last year the changes that I have made although they are very small to me, they are major to others.
My Family
This is a family... my coaches are my parents, mentors and counselors... the guys and girls are my brothers and sisters, team mates and my best friends... they make me stronger and we have a bond that no one can break.. they give me my determination and make me push harder everyday and they all catch me if I happen to fall.... find a family like mine and you'll understand... 3..2..1.. GO!
We had a visitor tonight at our box from CFLA, while talking with this visitor I learned that my 'family' is impressed by what I have done. Although I think I might dumb-down the 'impressed', it really opened my eyes. I am just someone who came into the box with a friend that told me I needed to do something. I think about things over the last year and what I have accomplished and in the middle of a WOD you don't notice it, but take a step back and you feel like you have conquered a lot. I didn't have goals or hopes or ambitions, all I wanted to do was drop weight and get back to being decent and not chunked up. I am 13lbs less than I was a year ago but everyone keeps seeing changes, the change that I don't see is in the scale... BUT.. what I DO see is in my heart, my speed, my mental toughness, strength and stability. SO, anyhow.. I've had a few weeks that I haven't been to the box and with the weather changing in Florida I feel sluggish... if you go to a box and think no one will miss you, you are a DAMN FOOL!! When you feel like you are hitting rock bottom tell someone in your box and I bet they will light that fire underneath your sluggish ass and you will get moving.
Too many times I have let people tell me I am doing the wrong thing or question me on what I think is right. I am a very strong and determined person and if you tell me NOT to do something I will tell you to kiss my ass get up and do it 10 times and each time get better with it just to prove you wrong!
I decided a month before my 27th birthday that I was going to do my first 5k at Disney World. Well I've been a athlete for 13 years and hated running with every inch of my body. See, what people don't understand is Crossfit will make you do shit you NEVER wanted to do... it's something about endorphins and all that crap I can't wrap my brain around right now. But in all honesty it's more than that. Well I did my 5k and finished it with a 16 minute mile... my goal was to finish, I was so proud of myself and I couldn't stand it. I kept asking people around me if they were proud of me and they were but it wasn't a satisfaction and excitement that I got from my box family. So, when I got back I asked about another 5k and was TOLD I was running another one at the end of the month... ummm.... okay, why not! This 5k I did with my girls from my box and one of them being my coach, and they are the best group anyone could ask for. Finished with a time of 44 and some change. Although I shaved some time off my first race at the beginning of the month and was happy I improved, I was more excited that they were there to see it and see what I have done for myself with their help.
I know that I am something special at my box and they are something special to me. My anger, frustration, aggravation, blood, sweat and tears have been left at that box I can't tell you how many times. I've dropped the F Bomb to push out that last rep, I have left my skin on that pull-up bar because I didn't want to let go, my tears are still on the concrete slab outside because my anger got the best of me during the day and the WOD put me on the ground. I didn't have goals but now I do, I know I can be a beast and I am here doing this because not only do I need this but I will prove you all wrong about what you think of me and my family!
Don't under estimate the power of a woman, her mind, strength and what she can do when you tell her no!!
